My Cat's in the Cradle

My Cat’s in the Cradle                Dedicated to one of my best friends, who committed suicide

My Cat’s in the cradle,

In the coffin, six feet deep.

Gently rocking in

An everlasting sleep.

I used to open up my email

To find her loving letters.

When I was feeling down,

She’d always make it better.

One day the roles were reversed,

And she was feeling low.

She wanted to end it,

To let her life go.

I tried to tell her she was loved

But I guess she never heard.

So I’ll sing to my sweet sister,

And hope she hears my words.

Now my Cat’s in the cradle,

In the coffin, six feet deep.

I wish I could sing her awake,

Instead of singing her to sleep.

Uncoiled

Uncoiled                  for my asshole of an ex-boyfriend

You made me trade my halo

For a devil’s horns.

You made me trade my kingdom

For a crown of thorns.

You made me trade my morals

For a bitter touch.

You gave me so little

When I gave you so much.

You made me trade my heart of gold

For a silver ring.

You made me trade myself,

Give you everything.

You said this ring was the ending,

But I think you meant it to be the start.

Because though I no longer wear it

You still try to steal my heart.

I didn’t realize until I took it off

That it was only weighing me down.

But now I see that you meant

To keep me on the ground.

Now I know that in all that time,

You never truly thought of me.

You cared only for yourself.

You didn’t want to see me free.

Now I see the selfish soul

Behind your innocent eyes.

Now I see the truth

Behind all of your lies.

I open up my jewelry box

And here I stand.

I put your beautiful shackle

Back onto my hand.

I see it shimmer in the light,

False silver with counterfeit gold.

I tear it off my finger.

I’ve never felt anything so cold.

What a fool I was to accept it,

To accept anything from you.

Tell me this, was it all a lie,

Was your love ever true?

I cannot answer for you,

But I do know this:

The truest deception of all

Was in my lying kiss.

I never truly loved you;

I was only playing a part.

Oh how I sincerely wished

That you could’ve claimed my heart.

But now I’ve come to accept

That you don’t have what I need.

Time has healed up all the wounds

That once made me bleed.

I wish you all joy and happiness

As both our lives move on.

You might try to get it back

But our time together is gone.

I’m giving you your silver shackle.

I don’t want it anymore.

It’s time I spread my wings

And allowed myself to soar.

I’ll fly away to distant lands

That you may never see.

I’ll make my home with those

Who accept me for me.

I’ll let myself fall in love,

Feel whatever I want to feel.

I’ll stop pretending to be someone I’m not.

I’ll let myself be real.

Suspended Traveler

Time passes like everlasting ripples

But here I, a traveler lost

In this sea of unfamiliarity,

Hang suspended on a gossamer

Thread, my feet mere inches

Above the torrential rapids below.